Exotic Emotion

Exotic Emotion

By: Khai- Imba Dota Chix

I find it hard to think back and reminisce our good times

when i feel the pain and see my scarred heart. 

I don’t even want to remember it all,

it’s so painful to remember you loved me 

for I can already predict and see what had to come next...

 months of heartaches and tears...plus infinite sadness.. 

The incurable pain invaded my soul every moment till now

and I can hardly face our reality but....

I can’t let you hurt me anymore.. 

No longer blind but I don’t want to see…

for the fact that it’s hard to go..

yet, it is much harder for me to stay: to stay with this agony…to stay in love with you…

You are so insensitive, instead of giving me love you showed me hypocrisy. 

I suffered too much because of this bullshit love I had for you…

Your deeds, your words, your broken promises and your pretensions made a cut sooo deep,

like a sharp knife stabbing my heart.

It cries, only if you can hear…

It bleeds, only if you can see… 

It almost stopped beating, only if you can feel…

But, still I can’t help my self but to fall for you over and over again..

My mind wants to defame you and give you a curse,

but all that my heart speaks of is the foolish love it offers only for you….

I want you back, but I just can’t…and i don’t need to..

I want to shout how much I LOVE YOU, but… I am MUTE…

I don’t want to take another agony and to experience again times of hopelessness courtesy of you…

I’ve had enough, been stupid for so long …

realizing that I’m not born to be a martyr…

So, I need to let you go, set you free and then move on with my life

with new hope of finding true love that will heal my wounded heart.

A love that will caress my heart and soul which I never felt from you… 

A LOVE WHICH I CAN KEEP AND FEEL FOREVER…..